It is finally over. I don't know how to summarize the whole feeling. Maybe it's a bit of sadness, happiness, anxiousness and dunno what other shit mixed together in one melting pot and KABOOM... that's my graduation. The rehearsal bored the hell out of me that's for sure but other than that, I felt that everything went on too fast. The time we get to say our goodbyes and to savour the moment was insufficient. At some point, it almost felt like the whole ceremony was to mark the end of my life. Ironically, in some places, graduation is also known as the commencement ceremony. The name itself should give you an idea that it is to mark the beginning of something, likely the start of a new life. I guess in my case, it should be a bit of both. Even though moving on can sometimes be a pain in the ass, I'm glad that I'm able to end this chapter of my life with a happy note. I'm thankful to achieve what I had achieved but I know in weeks to come, everything will soon be forgotten hence I shall not rest on my laurels. It's time to focus on my future.
My baby. I shall try not to sleep with it.
Speaking of the future, I have to admit that I was quite worried about being able to achieve my goals and to secure my desired career until recently. I remember those days in primary school I would fantasize about being an engineer. Well I kinda asked my mum what I should be if I like to build houses and she could have told me to be a construction worker but, like any other mums who wanted the best for their child, she mentioned 'engineer'. Fast forward to now, after changing gazillions of "cita cita saya ialah menjadi seorang" thingamajig, I finally realized that life has something else installed for me. My point is, we have no reason to be anxious of the future, provided that we consistently keep an eye out for opportunities because in a period of 10 years we may not know what will happen. It's good to have goals but hey, it's okay to "fine tune" your goals as you go along with life because you might never discover your true potential if you don't open yourself to different possibilities. One thing is for sure, success is never a solitary feat therefore I would like to thank my amazing friends for their support during times when I was at my lowest and to my beloved family. Though I may not always tell people how much I appreciate them face to face (because I'll feel awkward), rest assured I have never forgotten their contributions. So that's about it for today. As for tomorrow, a new life beckons. Let's call that chapter, the start of my career.
No, you are not going to see a clear picture of me in that hideous suit! Sobs.. now I know I look so ugly in those robes, I'll never attend Hogwarts let alone graduating in it *crying a river*.
