KIM HAUS PENANG
10 years ago
Life has been gloomy this past week. I guess I can blame it on the weather but I actually find the equally gloomy weather comforting. I can't say the same for the part about my life though because it felt as if there is lack of something that completes me. I don't think being single is the cause of it either if that's what you're thinking hah! Sometimes I think about the future and the things that I want to own, the goals that I set and then I pause and ask myself so what if I've got'em all? Will it really fulfill this little void that I'm feeling inside? I remember when I was younger, owning a Playstation was the best thing that could happen to me. Once in a while I would spend time after school in a little shop in KOMTAR renting Playstation by the hour with a couple of friends until one fine day when I saved enough for my very own machine. It was the happiest moment of my life, back then, but guess what, the feeling lasted only a few days and then life goes on. You may think that a Playstation is just a small object but for a teenager that has no other goals than to play King of Fighters every hour of the day, it's a dream come true. Of course I've grown and so has my dreams and goals but the fact is, at the end, the satisfaction that you get out of achieving your current goals is just the same or maybe less because we'll eventually grow out of it and then the next obsession comes along. So how do I fill this emptiness inside? Have you ever asked yourself what's your purpose? I do, but I hope I won't have to soon.
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Have you ever been in a situation where you think that you are the most capable amongst the crowd for a position yet you are bound by "social etiquette" from voicing it out in fear that you'll be deemed as a snob or that you are full of yourself? The situation is worse when you live in a society that value style over substance. When a person in charge decides to go for someone with style over someone with substance for a specific task, what should the person with substance do? To make things relevant, I'll equate style with looks and substance with knowledge. I'll further define looks as a person who possess the perfect character and fits into the typical stereotype of how a person of a certain profession should look like eg. IT engineers should be serious and their looks should more on the nerdy side. Then there is the knowledgeable one who happens to possess the skills and proficiency to fully execute the task. I know there are those who happened to be blessed with both, lucky them, but I'll draw a line just so we don't make things complicated. What I'm trying to say is that people with style gets it easy with life. Others tend to trust them more and thinks that they are a much suitable candidate simply because most people judge a book by it's cover. Of course it's not their fault that they happen to have style but people with substance should be given a chance to compete therefore they should not be afraid or feel guilty to speak out or volunteer to lead the pack. Be warned though, your confidence will come with a price because as I said, people tend to judge you by the skin therefore even with sufficient knowledge you'll have to walk the extra mile to prove your capabilities and to shut down the naysayers.
I'm back to blogging again albeit a couple of days late because of work. I was supposed to be off yesterday but someone changed the schedule and forgotten to inform me. How convenient. I ended up being late for an hour but lucky for me, it was not a busy day and they could've been able to carry on without my presence lol... Anyway, just wanna post something up for the sake of posting something hence I shall end here as I'm suppose to be working double shifts tomorrow. Sigh.. BTW I'm currently following a series that I think you would find interesting...
GLEE... drama, comedy, dance, musical. It puts High School Musical to shame.
The cast of GLEE
My favorite line from this series thus far... It' not easy to break out from your comfort zone. People will tear you down and tell you that you shouldn't have bothered in the first place but let me tell you something, there's not much of a difference between a stadium full of cheering fans and an angry crowd screaming abuse at you. They are both just making a lot of noise. How you take it, is up to you. Convince yourself they are cheering for you. You do that and someday, they will.
PS. Play featured video for the trailer of GLEE
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Hello world! I've just got back my mood for blogging. Nothing much worth mentioning happened to me for the past few weeks except for some minor drama at work. Typical sore losers who try to make people's life miserable because they can't bare to see other's success. Anyway, it's already October, meaning that the year is coming to an end soon. Really freaky how time went by so fast. I remember it wasn't the case when we were in highschool. Back then, every class seems like a century and a year seems like forever or maybe because maths and science subjects have the ability to slow down my perception on time lol... I know its a bit too early for new year resolutions but I want 2010 to be a fruitful year not just because it the year of the tiger (Tigers rule!!!), but because 2009 is like a year of "preparations" for me. Sort of like getting myself into shape literally and figuratively to achieve something. Therefore, next year I would like to see myself putting more effort into making things happen. So before the curtains close on 2009, I must forge ahead with the "preparations" as I anticipate the start of a new year.
On another note, two of my housemates had confirmed that they will be moving out by the end of this year because they will no longer be studying in the same institution. This means that I'll be bidding farewell to another familiar element in my life soon. Time to scout for a new crib! I already have several potential hotspot at sight and I sure hope that at least some of my amigos are gonna live together this time *insert hopeful look*. Anyway, the following pictures are taken from a website which features a unit for rent with a good location and a fair price. I can almost hear it say my name haha...
Speaking of me amigos, I'm excited that TSP is finally back to Malaysian shores. Hope to see you soon! The sooner the better. I'll keep this entry a short one because I'll be signing in for work extra early tomorrow. Preparing for a minor pre-function evening cocktail. Will probably post another entry by tomorrow or the day after.
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Hey all. I've been pretty reluctant to blog these few days. Had been taken on a bumpy ride during work. One day you feel like you belong then it could be the opposite the next day. A lot had happened since my last post which leads to the always frustrating question of where should I start? Okay, since I've started on the topic of work, I shall share with you a good news or rather a bad news... Well, it depends on how you see it. I received my first unofficial paycheck from my current job! Great news right? Here comes the bad part, I'm not entitled for service points this month as I worked less than 12 days. To make things worst, I'm getting paid till the 25th of Aug only because that's their 'pay period' or what ever they call it which means I'm only getting 6 days worth of salary without service points! Ah well, at least its still a 3 figure lol... Guess I'll have to wait till the 25th of September for my first official paycheck. If you are wondering about the date, I think the cheque was issued on the 31st but I just got them 3 days ago and I still can't seem to find the time to cash them
So now that I've got some greens with me, I was thinking of getting myself something useful. Something that I was more determined to get after the last couple of days. Okay, why don't I tell you what happened the last couple of days. So here's how the story goes, it was during a night when I went for my bath leaving my room door wide opened which I seldom do, I don't know why. When I got out from shower, I could sense something was not quite right but I was too tired to bother. That night when I was lying on my bed about to drift off to la la land, I heard it. It was a faint squeaking sound. I thought for a moment and decided that it was impossible as I'm living on the 5th floor and with that logic, I fell into slumber. During the second night when I was busy surfing through the net, I heard it again. This time I went on a "witch hunt" leaving no shells unturned but yet I could not find 'the thing' I was looking for. I gave up after spending quite sometime, also because I had to answer nature's call. It was then when I opened my door I saw 'the thing' making a dash for the exit. It was so fast that I only managed to catch a shadowy glimpse of it heading towards the darkness of my unlit kitchen. I had to rudely decline mother nature's invitation for supper to continue my "witch hunt" in the kitchen. I equipped myself with a broom, ironically since I was suppose to be on a witch hunt not a witch run. Anyway, I started sweeping the entire surface area beneath every cupboards and tiny spaces that 'the thing' could have called a safe haven but to no avail. By then I thought to myself that it could have been hiding in a hole on the wall that I didn't know existed and there could be more of them. It was then that I spotted that one place that I didn't bother to move, simply because it was disgusting (that I blame it on an individual who failed every ISO cleanliness test ever to exist in the world). It was the maggot infested rubbish bin. I thought to myself that 'the thing' wouldn't dare mock me would it? I mean here I am basically trying to sweep it's guts out with my broom and all it could think of is getting some snacks? Well I shook the pathetic bin anyways just to be sure that I've covered the last known spot to me and behold, 'the thing' was finally spotted. It was squeaking while crawling very fast with it's head tilted upwards. I was too shocked to even find my voice let alone shattering glasses with a high pitch scream simply because it was the biggest frigging HOUSE LIZARD that I've ever saw in my life! It was even a wonder that I managed to gather thoughts such as, what the fuck is wrong with this world? I thought mice squeaks but a squeaking lizard? Since when did this evolution took place? Has too much American Idol turned this hopeful house lizards into some sort of reptilian sopranos? Nevertheless, I was glad it was not what I thought it was though it has caused a development of cleanliness paranoia to a certain degree hence the requirement to buy something as useful as a vacuum cleaner to suck up every speckle of dust in my room. Ah... what a great excuse for wanting to be lazy haha... I'm planning to use my RM 150 voucher that I obtained from PC Fair to buy this vacuum but I'm still in a dilemma as I initially wanted to purchase a spare battery for my camera.
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I do not dare to sleep even when it's 3 am already because I fear that I'll be drowsy later in my shift tomorrow (which is later today). So today (as in yesterday lol) was my off day and not wanting to waste the day away, I decided to go somewhere different for dinner. TTDI was where I ended up and lo, I found a Ramadan Bazaar. Banana leave was why I headed to TTDI but since I initially intended to go for these bazaars with some friends, I went ahead alone lol... Was quite a waste though as I didn't take my cam along. The first aroma that reaches my nostrils were Ayam Goreng Berempah and Murtabak which was at an insane price of RM10 but still selling. Wanted to buy the Briyani Johor but the queue was so long and I was already getting hungrier by the moment so I bought some piping hot chicken samosas instead. As I went along, I told myself not to spend too much like I always did in SS2 Pasar Malam. With that in mind, I went hunting for "finger foods" which was obviously cheaper but it was soon proven to be a failed strategy. The smaller the food, the more I need to fill in a big cosmic gap in my stomach and the tendency to go for varieties ended up burning another hole in my pocket. Not wanting to go home yet, I declare my own buka puasa in my own car which now smells like fish cake because of some Otak Muar grrr...
Went to the 'Pentagon of Entertainment' aka Ikea-Curve-Ikano-Cineleisure-Tesco combo for some walk kononya to burn some calories but ended up eating ice creams, tea eggs and an unidentified ex-flying object (Okay fine it's chicken but it has been mutilated so badly that it's unrecognizable. To prove my point, they called it dogs, hotdogs!!!). Wanted to watch Up but decided not to after the total damage received in the Ramadan Bazaar so I went scouting for The Library just to have a look at the interior. For those who don't know, this is no place for academia unless you are here to execute some "research" for your F&B project *winks*. When I got to the front I was quite astonished by the posh entrance (At this moment, while typing, I just realized I could have used my mobile to capture all the pictures). Slightly dismayed with the display of fake books which has the same cover printed over and over again but at least they made it looked like real books protruding from a REAL shelf instead to some fake posters of book shelfs *cough*official photographer of graduation*cough* I didn't go in because there was a host in front and I obviously didn't look like I was there for a drink with my Tesco plastic bags with me. Nevertheless, I still managed to get a glimpse or two of the interior and boy it was plush. I know if I have a house, I want it to have that kind of ambience or at least part of the house. I imagine it's the perfect hangout place. I'll put it in my to go list lol...
As for my work, the ever permanent 5 to 2 shift is as sucky as it can get. Working in F&B line is already a tough thing. It demands a lot but when you work at a constant 5 to 2 shift, it means total destruction of your social life which makes it double as hard since you are practically working when other people are free and trust me when I say that the odd hours of freedom you have is basically... uhmm... unpractical? Then again, I'm getting use to it which is scary cause I don't want to arghh... Sometimes when I see those seniors who comes back to the working place even when it's their off days, you get the idea... I'm like go get a life! As much as one has to be devoted to their work, I really believe you need to have a balance of social life. It's easier when one gets to go back to their family or friends but unfortunately I'm not that fortunate haha... I started my work with all my housemates on holiday, except for one which I occasionally spew some words to like okay, thanks, never mind and other words that does not need the usage of my brain neurons. To make things worse, I'm not exactly a morning person (meaning to say I rarely do social activities in the morning) so when I wake up at 2 or 3pm I check the news and proceed with some miscellaneous stuffs before getting ready for work. It's becoming a routine. Oh well, seems like I need plan B. Do I have one? We'll just have to wait and see.
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